Day 7: All that is within me…

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Psalm 103

Of David.

Praise the Lord, my soul;
    all my inmost being, praise his holy name

Praise the Lord, my soul and forget not all his benefits

who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases,

who redeems your life from the pit
    and crowns you with love and compassion,

who satisfies your desires with good things
  so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s


A true story…

I had just received dreaded words from a doctor’s report.  But as I hung up the phone that afternoon, I felt strangely outside of it somehow.  “Guess I just heard ‘bad news,'”  I thought, then laughed at the odd phrase, more like those in a cliche movie scene than words I would usually use.  But when I  turned to the psalms and read the first words my eyes fell on, I gasped.

Psalm 112: 6-8:

Surely the righteous will never be shaken;
    they will be remembered forever.
 They will have no fear of bad news;
    their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the Lord.
Their hearts are secure, they will have no fear;
    in the end they will look in triumph on their foes.

I simply sat there for a few minutes, awed at the thought of God first putting that particular phrase in my mind.  Then making me to open right to that exact wording in His Word.  It struck me — I could not have heard His heart any more clearly than if He’d spoken audibly.

That’s when I remembered stories I’d read of others who had written out such promises on index cards in times of crisis… to keep before their eyes and spirit continually.  To not allow fear or negative words to knock down His truth.  I’d interceded that way for someone else and seen God move mightily on his behalf.  But somehow it was harder to pray that way for myself.

I closed my eyes.  Help me to be steadfast in trusting You, Lord.  I don’t know why it’s easier to believe for others than for me.  Lead me to words to hold onto from You…  I don’t want to listen to fearful thoughts, or experiences from well meaning others who might tell me horror stories.  I want to keep my mind staid on what You say

So, for the next two weeks before surgery, I did just that.  Finding verses that spoke promise to me in ways I’d never seen in them before and speaking them out to the circumstances.  And asking friends I knew would pray like-minded to join me.  Like taking God’s promises and placing them one by one back into His hands, a child picking flowers for her gardener dad.  I will not fear… I will look with triumph on my enemies (this disease)…  Day after day, praying Scripture… like food and medicine to all that I am.

A dear friend called to pray with me the night before I left for the hospital, sharing one more promise God had led her to in quiet time.  Psalm 103: 1-5.  In that moment she prayed those awesome statements over me, I suddenly saw more in them than I’d understood before…

  • David was directly addressing his innermost parts, commanding his body to worship the Lord… even as his spirit did…
  • He reminded his body, soul and spirit, to never forget one single one of God’s benefits, and then he spoke out those benefits in detail:
  1. We usually have no trouble believing the first oneGod forgives ALL my sins!  It is the first thing Jesus said to those He healed too, somehow always linked to healing and wholeness of body and spirit…  Take up your mat and walk, your sins are forgiven…
  2. It’s this next part that is harder to believe…because our past experience can seem to say otherwise.  But God says,  He heals ALL our diseases…
  3. His prayer was prophetic of the cross…  Jesus has redeemed our lives from the pit, both here and now and in eternity.  His death and resurrection has crowned us with love and compassion…
  4. David speaks out what Jesus later told us again and again. (Would you who are good give your children a scorpion instead of a fish?  If an unjust judge will get up and answer his door to one who keeps banging, how much more will your father who loves you?)  David knew… God longs to satisfy us with good things.  To renew our youth and strength…  It is the Thief who comes to steal and rob…

And today… looking back at God’s ‘triumph over my enemies,’ I believe… there is healing in the Word, because God lives in His Word.  He puts it in our mouths to use as His sword (Ephesians 6), and when we receive and take it to speak back to Him, He fulfills yet another promise, Isaiah 55:11 — “... so is my word that goes out from my mouth:It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.


Thank you Father, for each and every healing promise…beginning with your Name, God our Healer.

Today, I pray Psalm 103 for myself [Insert your name] and for those I am lifting up before you…[Insert names of those you intercede for]:

I enlist whatever parts of my body (and theirs) that need healing to Praise the Lord, o my (their) innermost being!  I will sing…His victory and joy resound inside me!  Sickness and disease do not give praise to You who created my innermost parts, Lord.  I will not forget one single one of your benefits!  Thank you for forgiving my sins and cleansing me!   If I have anything against anyone today, I forgive!  I praise you!  I receive your gifts of healing!  I praise you for redeeming me from every pit, for crowning my life with love and compassion, for satisfying me with good.   I am so grateful that You do this with desire to renew my strength and youth, like the eagle’s!  I praise you for your Word that cuts through every mountain coming against me.  May praises to You abide and continually flow in every cell of my body, for sickness can not abound where You live.  In Jesus Name…  I will sing Glory to You Alone. 

An old worship song is filling my mouth as I pray… and I sing it into all my innermost being…”Clap your hands all you people (all my parts!), Shout unto God with the voice of triumph!  Shout unto God with the voice of praise!  Hosanna, Hosanna!”


   Thought to ponder…

Is there something in my heart of hearts that I fear is too “big” for God?



©   Pam Depoyan

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31 Responses to Day 7: All that is within me…

  1. Kimberly says:

    Beautiful life giving words. Thank you…

  2. Rona B says:

    What a wonderful verse and testimonial. I hope you have a blessed week.

  3. MaryLou says:

    Pam, as I read Psalm 112: 6-8 it brought me back to a time when I found it in my Promise Book and it did encourage me at the airport after I was told I would not be getting on the next flight but possibly on the one after. Well when they called my name as being on the next flight what an encouragement it was to me as I had meditated on that Scripture. Thank you for all that you did share and all that you have shared in the past all of it is so very beautiful. 🙂

    • I love how God can meet us in so many varied ways in one scripture… how there are neverending revelations of His heart. Because the word is so alive. Thanks for sharing how He encouraged you and met your need that day in the airport. Thanks, MaryLou! I was just thinking of you this weekend and wondering if you were reading here… 🙂

  4. Dianne Hogue says:

    Oh my–incredible post–just exactly what I needed to be reminded of–I am going through a particularly rough season of my life–I have had two or three life verses over the past 30 years or so but several years ago I chose Psalm 112 as my life’s chapter–and all because of–you guessed it–the passage you shared–

    I needed to be reminded of my life’s chapter–Thank you so much.


    • Dianne, in whatever way you need right now, I declare His words of life and healing over you and agree with you in prayer for God’s covering and triumph over all the Thief would try to steal. God is showing me again and again how His word is our sword… the way He spoke it back to Satan in the desert, we can stand in the victory Jesus won for us and declare His light and life and healing. I prayed over what to write here, and it moves me to know how He spoke it to you to encourage you today. He is holding on to you.

  5. Mary says:

    You had me from the opening Psalm – one of my favorites, which was just read in church this morning (in the midst of “10,000 Reasons”, appropriately enough). A lot of beauty and truth in these words. Thank you for sharing your struggles, and the hope you found in the midst of them. Praying for you, friend. God bless you!

  6. Carrie says:

    What a powerful post. You had me transfixed! I too want to say His words, and feel His love. Thank you, thank you!

    • Sometimes this subject can be so touchy, but I really prayed over this one today and God seemed to put the words in my heart… Thank you for telling me how this ministered to you. Yes, let us say His words! I believe they are moving mountains we cannot see or imagine, because they are alive with His Spirit in them. Bless you, Carrie. 🙂

  7. Psalms are so encouraging and uplifting in times of troubles. I am linked up next to you over at Weekend Brew.

  8. Barbie says:

    “He satisfies my desire with good things”. God is always good. I am thankful you came through your ordeal on the other side. He’s faithful. Blessings!

  9. Sharon says:

    What an uplifting post! And so timely for me. The storms of life have tossed and turned me lately – and I’ve felt so much tumult in my heart. But, the Anchor of My Soul, my Solid Rock, has held me steady.

    I love His promise that with HIM on my side, I will not be shaken. AMEN!


    • Oh Sharon, I pray His peace envelops you right now. Let the words of these psalms pour his steadiness into you. Yes, you will not be shaken! I pray in agreement for healing in all ways needed… I’m so glad you shared that.. and to know God used these words to encourage and uplift you! It’s why I’m writing this Weekend Series of God’s “health-FULL” words…

  10. Lisa says:

    Many years ago when experiencing some major health issues, I memorized Ps 103:1-5. I think verse 4 speaks to me the most: He redeems my life from the pit and crowns me with love and compassion. Thanks for the great reminder!

  11. Such true words – God watching over us, leading us, and guiding us. Miracles of His touch; His presence. Praying that peace will continue to uphold you through His Presence.
    Thanks for linking to Sunday Stillness,

  12. Thank you for sharing at “Tell Me a Story.” I enjoyed your heartfelt “Prayer.” It is powerful with faith filled words. God was so good to give you a message direct from His heart, as you opened your Bible to the Psalms. I love it when this happens. May God grant you continued healing!

  13. pam-as always, your words pour out–filled with the strength of your faith–and the love within you as you share your message of HIS Love!! I have been “out” recently as it seems my Pain levels want to drag me on a long,hard ride… Yet I hear your words, and recall the times in my life with illness when I reached for HIS hand and held on for dear life!! The Blessing we all have–is the simplicity of knowing HE is there—always…

    You are wonderful in your writing,sharing your own journey…. Beautiful Pam. If you could toss in a prayer for me–I would appreciate it so much.. The NEXT Pain hurdles are tough–my husband, me and my doctor are united in agreement of Surgery not being an option I want. I am learning when I make a decision of this nature–its like giving a “Open Door” to Pain—when all I really want to do is Kick it to the Curb!!! Thank you Pam for being YOU… Blessings.

    • Martha,

      I’m so glad you shared your heart and need. I think I understand some of the rage you must feel with years of endless pain…though all of us have different experiences of that. And I do pray for you every day.

      Last night, I read your comment here before bed and wanted to pray before answering… to not dash off a word to you, but to seek Him. Then this morning, I read a beautiful story of prayer in a year old Guideposts issue (my friend often gives me old issues, so this was new to me…). I would like to share a prayer that was in that story… because as I read it, I had a deep sense of the Holy Spirit whispering, this is for Martha too...

      Heavenly Father, I forgive everyone in my life and repent of my sins. I am grateful for my life and opportunities. I love everyone and trust in your love for me. I surrender to your love completely. In Jesus’ name fill me with your love.

      The story is of a man whose sister felt inspired to write this prayer out of the blue on an airplane flight. She said, “I know it sounds weird, but I think this might help you…” He said that at first, he meant only half the prayer as he spoke it. Nothing changed immediately as he prayed it every morning, but he began to feel a welling up in him of God’s healing presence. His sister had also carved him a small wooden cross and told him to hold it to his heart when he prayed this prayer each day. Not any magic words of course, but a surrendering, I think, that God always uses… and a story of deep healing that did take place in his life as he continued to pray this way.

      I understand how you want nothing more than to kick this pain… and a thought is enfolding me for you, Martha. Jesus kicked your pain at the cross. That is done. We need to take it from His hands. He wants to heal you. I know you have prayed endlessly… and today is a new day. And this scripture is strongly in my mind for you today:

      Zechariah 4:6 (NIV) “ So he said to me, “This is the word of the LORD to Zerubbabel (Martha): ‘Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,’ says the LORD Almighty.” That is so encouraging, Martha. The word “says” shows this is not in the past, but in the present tense, You cannot kick this…but the Lord Almighty can, will, and has!

      I went to Mass this morning that was said for a friend who needs healing. I loved the responsorial to the psalm this morning: “I will take the cup of (healing) salvation!” May this be a prayer on your heart and lips today, Martha. A declaration of faith before the Lord before you even see healing. Drink His cup…give him your hurting and natural anger… for His salvation encompasses your healing. I pray this with and for you too. Because I do know there is healing in His wings for you! 🙂

      Love, Pam

  14. Pam–the Lord certainly is in the midst–putting the words on your heart and sending them straight to me!! HE SMILES with JOY!! Many years ago,”before the fall” it seemed nothing was impossible for me to do–but I recall my Mom’s words–“You need to slow down~~its not good to push your body so hard. Sometimes I think the good Lord is going to find some way to really SLOW you down.” When the fall happened–I knew–nobody to blame for this accident but Me! Then I had to learn forgiveness of myself—the fall changed not just my life, but my husband’s too, and I constantly apologized.

    As these years pass–yes,Pain is with me constantly~~~but oh the lessons I learn~~~Humility as I see another person suffering, its a feeling that is hard to describe~~my lips silently say a prayer “God help them” and a lightbulb in my head goes ON–“Martha–Suffering is all around you~~just know I am WITH You!”

    • Martha,
      Sometimes words spoken completely with love and concern are not always reflective of His truth… for i really know that your fall was not God’s way of slowing you down or some kind of punishment for having been “too active.” It is not God’s way in anything I see of His heart in the bible. I think of the man at the pool of Bethesda, suffering for so many years and Jesus asking him, Do you want to be healed? I wonder if he held onto guilt for some reason, thinking God wanted him that way… when Jesus word was, take up your mat and be healed. Keep on looking to that. Martha. Let his healing words flow over you and in you…

      You are so right about forgiving yourself. It may have been a foolish momentary decision that led to the accident, but guilt is a tool of the Enemy of our souls. I don’t believe that God puts things on us like this… or that he wants you to live in excruciating pain. But I do agree that God can bring something good in the midst of them having happened, and for you that is a new awakening to compassion. You do have a compassionate heart, Martha and I can see where your experiences make you even more attuned to what others suffer. And that you know and feel Him with you. I know He truly is. Also, that wholeness is his heart for you….

      Blessings on your weekend!

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