Lately it seems as though jabbing whispers pelt me like sudden onset of ice-crunched rain, making it hard to stand against whipping winds.
Such as when the handyman — who is outside my open kitchen doorway discussing the repair of something that the condo association will take care of — suddenly fixes his eyes above my head and across the room to where peeling away paint seems to form a crack along the edge of wall to ceiling. Dire look in those eyes.
“Um,” he asks, pointing, “Mind if I come in and take a closer look at that?” He does, then poses there pondering long as if afraid to tell me the horrific news.
“The painters claimed that’s just settling that happens…,” I offer lamely. And at his prolonged stare, add, “It’s not a sign of leaking, is it?” Crunching machine numbers ring off streams of dollar signs in my head till he shakes his head ‘no.’ “Just that you need drywall replaced there…”
“Is it dangerous to leave it?” I ask, wordlessly thinking…well, it’s been this way for 6 or 7 years now… And I’m also in the middle of waiting for a garbage disposal replacement that’s going to take a hefty sum. Not to mention the widening crack in my garage floor that will need attention sometime in spring or summer…
“Oh, no…” he says. “Just something I’d do… ” proceeding to explain how they’d ‘cut a bead’ of dry wall, replace, have to repaint…”
Mm… Put that on the long time to never in the future list.
That is, until I wake up in the middle of the night, dodging arrows of worry flying round my pillow complete with nightmare images flashing behind my closed eyes. What if the wall is so flimsy or insecure that the cabinets should fall off?
Suddenly, thoughts of where I’m going to get funds to pay for so many other bills that keep streaming in lately… still for the broken shoulder. Various insurance payments due. Escrow time.
Fear. Worry. Heart-pounding no,no no…
Not just concerning bills. But all those other what ifs...
Until I pull in the reins and pay attention to whose voice I’m listening to.
“God is calling us to be His stewards in the earth, stand in His Name authority and talk the Word Truth back to the onslaught of fears,” a minister couple teaches this morning,”whether that is blasting at us from all the fear-mongering bad news on TV or screeching into our personal situations. Now is not the time to fold, but to stand up as His army and take back what the enemy has stolen…stop him in his tracks from taking one jot more… and follow the Lord’s instructions to bind terror in His Name, and loose God’s Heaven on earth!”
They continue to exhort. “When news announces the security level is high or a sickness is taking over the world, bind that word from happening in your house, in your town, in your country. Don’t just sit there and let it soak fear into you… Speak what you hear your Father saying!”
“My sheep know My voice,” He reminds me softly. “I speak peace, blessing, hope, provision — never fear. I speak power, authority, ruling and reigning in My Righteousness, doing greater things in My Name, My angels surrounding you…”
I rebuke the depression that’s been hovering fog-like over me in the dreary, dark weather we’ve been having too… and how I’ve been giving in to it…
To the jeers of the enemy who is counting on me not knowing what God means when He calls us to the authority of redeemed, conquering heirs of the King… His original plan in the Garden, bought back at blood price.
And I feel myself physically calming.
Pen in hand, I grab my One Year Bible where I’ve been following and meditating on Old Testament and New Testament readings broken out in days, and nestle into my chair, brace the word in my lap, legs knees up on the ottoman… I’ve been writing in the margins of this bible this time round, making notes where I convert certain verses into His Declarations to speak over my daily life. Underlining the words that show God’s character and desire as blessing and life.
[Valentine] Words of His Heart to Declare, over my bills and other worries that wilt like scorched and uprooted weeds in His Spoken Presence:
- As God looked at his creation with pleasure and blessed them all (Genesis 1:22), so he looks at me!
- As God placed man in the Garden of Eden as it’s gardener, to tend and take care of it, so He is calling me as His own in this world… to tend it with His Word of Life…
- And with the psalmist, I declare — The Lord watches over all my plans and paths! (psalm 1:6) With Solomon, ” The Lord delights to increase me with wisdom!” (Proverbs 1:6) “I will trust in and reverence the Lord!” (Proverbs 1:7)
- Lord, you are my shield, glory and only hope! You lift my head away from shame! Even if 10,000 surround me, The Lord is my protector! I will lie down and sleep in peace and wake in safety for the Lord watches over me!” (Psalm 3:1-8)
- The Lord will bless my storehouses, open his windows of heaven and pour out a blessing I cannot contain.”
Whose word are you declaring over your life today? The enemy has come to steal and kill, but the Lord chooses abundant life over you!
Action point: Take a psalm of praise [or a specific promise God leads you to in His Word] and turn it into a personal declaration of hope over your situation, your family, your town, your country today…
God’s Valentines, waiting for you…
And for one more refreshing word…
Hop over to read this lovely devotion from Lynne Morrissey in her guest post here today: http://deeperwaters.us/beautiful-boundaries/?utm_source=Deeper+Waters&utm_campaign=6aaf1d4d22-RSS_EMAIL_CAMPAIGN&utm_medium=email&utm_term=0_cbba9f3a27-6aaf1d4d22-297782281#
© Pam Depoyan
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